Thanksgiving

Still no form! I did talk to the USCIS and our fingerprints cleared and he said we are just waiting for our final approval.

We decorated our house yesterday for Christmas! This is a first for us. We always decorate the weekend after Thanksgiving. It looks really pretty! I was thinking about Thanksgiving and eveything that I have. I just have to stop thank God for so many blessings he has given me. I have a wonderful husband who works hard, loves us very much and is crazy about our boys. I have two very beautiful, sweet healthy, good boys (even though they can really try me sometimes). Me and Tommy both have wonderful parents and family and friends. We have a beautiful home, nice things and food in our cabinet, and jobs to go to everyday. And hopefully very soon, we will have a wonderful little Chinese daughter to love! I could go on and on and when I really start to think about everything in my life, I am in awe of how God continues to bless us. As our pastor has talked about the last couple of weeks, we truly are rich!

It is also with a heavy heart that I go into the holidays. I feel like our family is incomplete and it is hard to not have Madie at home and to not know how many more Thanksgivings we are going to have to wait for her. I continue to tell myself, it is all in God's time, but it is still very hard. There is a verse that God led me to and sometimes when I really start to feel things are never going to happen I read it. It is Habbakuk 2:3 and it says, " But these things I plan won't happen right away. Slowly, steadily, surely, the time approaches when the vision will be fulfiilled. If it seems slow, wait patiently, for it will surely take place. It will not be delayed".

My little Madie,
I just want you to know that this Thanksgiving we don't know when we will get to bring you home, but we are very thankful that God knows and that it will be just at the right time! I have imagined and dreamed of you so much! You are already a part of me and you hold a piece of my heart forever. I pray that you always know just how much we have loved you from the very start. This journey started for me four years ago and my love has just grown more and more everyday. My prayer is that you will change the world one day. I know that you have already changed me and your not even here yet! I love you! Mommy